Well, it has been quite a while since our last update because...there is no update yet! We are nearing the six month waiting mark, which means we will potentially be leaving the waiting list and become active sometime this month or the beginning of the next! The fact that we might be adopting a baby in this calendar year is both exciting and nerve-wracking. We are thrilled at the prospect of adding another little one (except on days that the Terrible Twos slap me in the face...sometimes I wonder if I am ready for another...haha), but we also have to admit that there are times that the idea of adoption becoming concrete and not a hypothetical idea can be overwhelming. Are we going to be chosen by a birth mother quickly or will it be a long time? Will the adoption fall through? Will we love the birth mother well, supporting her the way that is best for her and not best for us? Will we be able to put our opinions and ego aside for the sake of the baby and birth mother? How open will our adoption be? Will all parties be able to create healthy boundaries? Will the baby have special needs? How will Ellie be affected?
BUT GOD has this all in the palm of His hand and knows every detail, and while it is hard work sometimes, I have to constantly train my mind to remember God's promises, His faithfulness, and His sovereignty. It flashes me back to the intense anxiety I had while I was pregnant with Elinor. While a lot of that anxiety came from imbalances in my brain chemistry, there were many worries that came from all the unknowns. Will Ellie be healthy? Will I be a good mom? Am I ready for this? All of those questions were peacefully answered the moment she came, and remembering that helps to remind me that if God chooses to place a baby in our home via adoption, we will be able to look back on the adoption process and realize how worrying and all of the frantic questions that roll across my mind, threatening to send me in a panic, are so not worth dwelling on. Don't get me wrong, this adoption process will not be easy, and there may be things that happen that are devastating, frustrating, and involve fear, but at the end of that, I have faith in the sovereignty of God, knowing that if He is leading us to adopt, that He will provide for every aspect: every emotion, every financial need, every detail.
Spencer and I both want you all to know that we appreciate every single one of you who reads this blog and who is praying for us. If God brings us to mind, we would love for you to pray over the fears and anxieties that I wrote about above, and for Elinor as the adoption progresses.
If there are ways that we can be praying for you, please shoot us an email! We would love to add you to our prayer list.
Also, we have made some changes to the way that we will be accepting donations. We have had some questions about whether giving is tax deductible, and while it hasn't been the case in the past, we have created an account through Adopt Together. Any donations given via our profile on their website will be tax deductible! I have added the link to our profile below, and I will be adding it to our fundraising progress page on our website. If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask!
We are so grateful for the donations we have received so far! This Christmas season alone one person gave us $100 while we were sitting next to them at church, a coworker and his wife donated, and the boyfriend of a family member surprised us with a $100 donation which was both a sacrifice for him and a huge blessing for us. It has been amazing to see how God has continued to provide for us in such unexpected ways.
We hope that we will be able to have more updates for you soon, and that you won't be waiting two months for another update!
Happy New Year!
Adopt Together Profile: https://adopttogether.org/families/?fundraiser=senerman-family-adoption-1